So many thoughts are going through my mind. I shall attempt to organise it slightly.
Wednesday
Wed totally rocked. It was a really memorable day i guess? my bro said it was obvious that i was super nervous before my runs. whatever nick... anyway, there was only maths before aesthetics, although my fingers were seriously numb from sewing the belt cos the stiffener thing makes it super hard to sew, i still got my A, so i like aesthetics. unfortunately, i still need to do the sliphemming thingie, which i have conveniently forgotten how to do. and yunnie was supposed to help me sew the button and ribbon for the potholder cos i have no idea how to. I left class after sewing the belt. Mrs Chin is quite nice, although i cannot help but think that she's slightly senile. Oh well... perhaps she's just overly nice and friendly. She really is quite nice i guess. She didn't scold chloe for accompanying me in the needlework room before 3rd lang that time, and she wished me good luck for my races and told my class to wish me goodluck and say bye to me too. Met the rest eating fried chicken wings in the canteen, but i decided not to cos i don't like chicken. So there! The main reason why i usually don't like chicken is cos i have to get my hands dirty, or... i have to practise the fine art of deboning chicken with cutlery. Let's see, i didn't take xinqi's advice. I ate only 2/3 slices of bread although she told me i would be hungry after that, which i was. I ate a banana too! What xinqi, don't shake your head at me... Yeah, headed down to CCK. From here onwards, i cannot exactly recall the order of events but i hink we walked around trying to find space for us to dump our stuff, but was unsuccessful, resulting in us having to dump our stuff in the middle of the cedar crowd space. then we went off to sports hall to sleep, where i had a nice sleep after tossing and turning for approx 20 mins, to be rudely awakened after 20 mins for no good reason that i can rmb, and then to be reawakened 10 mins after that cos fat and heavy, annoying green shorts secondary school people trudged around near our territory where i was sleeping! So chloe decided to wake me up. Those people are freaky la. The first thing i see when i open my eyes is green shorts secondary sch people climbing the staircase an armslength from my head, which means i could have stuck out an arm and i would've tripped them. I think i jumped up and ran away. Stupid people. After that i got no more sleep. Gah! Went to do warmups with abby and ruixin and xinqi, where i whined constantly about how nervous i was. I have no idea how abby put up with me, cos i was going "abby... what if i die after my 800m? then i won't get to go for track dinner." "abby... are you sure i'm going to live to finish my 800m?" "abby! what if i take 15 mins?" haha, it's surprising that abby didn't snap at me. abby's so nice. our sec 4 seniors are all so nice. sighhh... i don't want them to go!!! anyway, not surprisingly, i lived to finish my 800m in 2.53, which was my nat juniors timing. Only difference is that this time i was slacking! :p 6 secs difference from thursday's run. Which actually is quite a lot, but nvm. I think i would've done 2.54 one, but then i would've been last, and chloe said she'd kill me, so i sped up slightly at the last part, but i'm very certain if i had pushed at the last 100m, i could've done about 3 secs faster probably. But then again, it's a waste of energy. Oh yea, somehow after about 200m, i tripped over ruixin's legs, and in order to regain my balance, i went off the lanes onto the side of the track(the field part), but i think i stepped back onto the track quite quickly that not many people noticed... i hope. i actually thought i was disqualified, cos i saw the stupid official staring at my perfectly executed ballet-like movement in an attempt not to fall. According to ruixin, I said "Oy!!!" When i tripped, and glared at her, but i don't rmb that, so it could've been a figment of her imagination. She supposedly said sorry, but i either forgot it, or i didnt hear her, or she imagined that too.
Had 4x400m after that. Oh wait, after i finished my race, i was alright, i didn't even stagger la. I walked towards the side quite normally, as normally as one can after finishing 800m. then that silly ruixin told me she felt like vomiting, and then i vomited. She gave me the idea la sheesh. So clever... Yeah then i went to look for my stuff, but since RG moved without telling us i couldn't find it. So i got quite annoyed and snapped at poor ruixin for the rest of the 1 hr. I was really quite snappish then. Then we waited for chloe to be done with her 4x100 while i applied deep heat fpr fun and abby told me not to anyhow use. 4x400 wqas so freaky. Actually, by then i wasn't scared alr. After you finish the first race, somehow, the second seems like a piece of cake. I was busy making friends with more people. See? We're such friendly people. Yeah, i hate the part when we're waiting for the stupid gunshot to go off. I know i distracted myself by thinking of sth, but i forgot what it was alr. I think i did the 2nd 100m too fast. I didn't slow down much. But my pacing was better than the heats pacing this time. I didn't die as early, although this definitely qualifies as dying. And chloe hopped! i almost yelled at her to stop moving, i think i did, but i was too tired to yell, and no sound came out. I lay on the ground when i finished... my part was over. Watching others run is fun. I decided that i love being 1st runner, and i want to be first runner always. The feeling of slackness as you watch the others carry on is incredible. You can just lie there... although for me, i wanted to cheer them on, i didn't have energy left, except for xinqi, cos she was last. Even then, i doubt she heard me.
Track dinner was fun. It was super ex and all, but it was with the trackers! And that in itself made te whole dinner what it was, a wonderful time of fun. Our sec 4 seniors are so super nice. and they played our track theme song and lots of people almost cried. ALMOST. when i left, i walked a few steps and i ended up crying, and ruixin ended up crying too, and hushu was on the verge of tears and so she told the two of us to shut up before she started too. Yunnie was the onl one completely unaffected lor. She was just sad. Fullstop. It reminded me of track camp so much... I hope i can go for track chalet stay in nov... i'll be away for 2 weeks in nov! Gah.
Track theme song
As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand
And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned
But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away
When it seems all your dreams come undone
We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are
We are one
If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?
Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?
Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go on
Your journey has only begun
Tears of pain, tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is our pride, deep inside
We are one
We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun
All the wisdom to lead
All the courage that you need
You will find when you see
We are one
Then, our terrible seniors took the cake thingy of the no. 1 and CUT IT UP! We are one divided people??? If they cut up the cake, then we aren't 1 anymore... And why are they leaving us? I won't ever see them again! Not in JC or anywhere!!! Jane's batch is super lucky lor. I can't believe that there are so few sec 3s. Next yr there will only be 3 sec 4s? And Leanne isn't even regular at trainings. And there is onyl one thrower i think. Abby, janice, drea, mus!!! And huijuen, and candice, sabby, christine, vania, etc etc.... But i care less abt those then the impact of losing the sec 4 runners. Husena mahamedi jadiwala. I think i spelt it correctly. How amusing. Yeah, anyway, yunnie, ruixin and i got off the train at raffles place to change lines and we left hushu all by herself.Then yunnie got off at braddell and ruixin and i got off at bishan. Oh then i went home, bathed, hit the bed and fell asleep. I got home at 11 something la, then i had to wake up at 6. Ble!
Thursday
Nothing much. I can't rmb what i wanted to say alr. So too bad. Oh yeah. RHD rehearsals wasted 2 hrs of my time. So i went for 3rd lang. I successfully managed not to fall asleep and i paid attention in class. I realised how much i need to study in order to pass my petit test 3. Pourquoi ai faire... (this sounds absolutely wrong. it probably is. My passe compose was never good. I give up! I can only form structured sentences. Gah! Comment vas-tu? Bien, et toi? How do i rmb the stupid house of verbs and prominaux verbs? i can only rmb manger cos that's the verb "to eat") J'aime manger le chocolat. (is it correct shinnie???) but i can't say le chocolat right? Who on earth goes arnd saying i like to eat the chocolate? what's chocolate in general?
Friday
I got a lot of comments about me wearing the purple dress. i felt quite stupid, but nvm. And i am not wearing that dress again, so you won't be able to take a photo of me in it. Hah! When jane saw me she couldn't stop laughing la sheesh. It's quite amusing though. I met abby (and drea) on the way down from chloe's class with ruixin, and they stopped us and took photos with us. Xing kui wo zao yi huan hui xiao fu le. :p I don't want abby to go!! Whinewhinewhinewhinewhine. All the sec 4s are nice, but i'm closest to abby. Aunty abby! And i'm abby's little junior. I don't see how i'm little though, i'm shorter than abby. hmph! yes, i know i'm short. -beams at letter abby, drea, mus and jan wrote- Oh yeah, anyway, we did the weird activity. Sally's green string is lousy. It broke. My paper beads were the prettiest, i don't care! Mine was prettier than sally's! hah! Oh yea, char came to my class today. she made a paper bead for me, but mine's nicer. =p I'm supposed to bring my half eaten cookie foot tmr. i don't want to! it'll break. chloe wants to steal my cookie foot. lol. there's like 3/4 of it left. I was too full to finish it on wed. i want to freeze it and keep it in my museum to remind me of our remarkable seniors who bake nice foot cookies. Oh yeah, where was i? i took 156 homw with xinqi and ruixin. This terrible xinqi and ruixin ah... They left without me! Hmph! When i couldn't find xinqi, i guessed that she left without me, so i went to RTC myself, cos knowing how long 156 takes, she was likely to still be there, and i was right! She was, with ruixin as well. Even better. Time passed so fast when we were together, the long bus ride home was over quite soon. We were talking about interesting topics... such as Ruixin's .... .... and i learnt that xinqi had had a ..... on ... before. So amusing! Ruixin got off at the stop after J8, and it seemed like the bus ride had only take 10 minutes la. Tmr, i'll be taking bus home on my own after MCC... when i'm by myself, the difference is going to be so great... I wish xinqi and ruixin were in MCC too. I got off 3 stops after ruixin, leaving xinqi on the bus by herself, but she would only have 2/3 stops more to go, so nvm. =p I love RG track team. I love almost all the runners. And i'm especally close to the 4x400 team. I saw them all today. :p Yay! I love yunnie and cheryl too. Irmelia is nice, i guess. It's quite funny how i can be friends and classmates of people for years since primary school, yet my friendship and closeness is stronger to these people i have known for but 6 months, and are not even in the same class is me!
Oh yeah. I have water baptism interview before cell dinner tmr. i wonder what they'll ask me...
baa went the sheep x 7:57 PM
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Monday, July 18, 2005
It's alr Monday. It's getting worse... Stupid thing. Stupid RS homework. Default operator, boolean, phrase, proximity, truncation, wild card, sooo interesting. It tells me exactly why i should study RS. And now i'm to retrieve docs from the WWW on the prob;em of illegal drug use in sports. A bit wu liao la. -grins at illegal drug use in sports coughcapsulescough- Gah. Okay, i better go and spend the next 2 hrs doing the RS thing.
baa went the sheep x 9:35 PM
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Gah! Singtel bill came today. As usual, i died, by no fault of mine. What freak of a singtel counts one month starting from the 11th of each month??? Sheesh. And i'm supposed to know that the freak of a singtel counts handphone bills from the 11th? Although a certain donkey called nicholas ng told me that they start from the 1st??? No wonder my hp bills have been so warped. What's the use of a message counter of you don't know when to count from and to??? I think my hp bill is ridiculously high too. Shouldn't have that problem from now onwards i think... If my parents ARE even going to give me another month. Actually, even if they switch back to my hicard, right now, i don't think it really matters la. No difference to me. Just that my parents will conclude that i need to be kept under reign, and if given more, will just misuse it, cos they don't know that i topped up my card myself? They assume it can last me for 2 months/3 months. Like... whatever.
Today's training was super slack, for us at least. I think Xinqi, Ruixin and I were running 200s at 35/36/37s. We were, after all, doing easy runs. I think it was too easy though. Don't know. Wasn't really tired after that. Did quite a slack 200 too. 50/51. Actually i think that pace is fair... If one does the last 100m at the same pace, it would be a 67/68. :p Ending a curve is easier than ending a straight though. On 2nd thoughs... maybe not. Depends on the lane la. Like in lane 1, if you end on a curve, it seems shorter to go then a straight. I hate the last 100m in a 400m race! I always die la!! Yday when i practised with Ruixin at bishan stadium, she said i did the first 200m in a 31. Which is stupid, seeing that i died after 300m. I just stopped. :p My judgement of speed is terrible la. I thought that i was going at the same pace as during the heats for 800m, but there was a 24 second difference. Stupid la...
baa went the sheep x 6:19 PM
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Friday, July 15, 2005
Wednesday.
Let's see, i think i got home fairly early on wednesday. I can't rmb anything significant about wednesday, apart from... poking myself many times from sewing the stupid belt. For the bar, the first hole was terribly difficult to sew. The bar kept moving!!! Sheesh. And my stitches weren't evenly spaced. Also, the stiffener was very hard to poke through. I took super long to finish la. But in between i helped Sally start, and get rid of her extra thread etc... The second one was even harder to sew. My fingers were alr sore from getting poked by the needle. But it looks a lot nicer. Oh yeah, 'Vanish' detergent is LOUSY and i highly recommend you never to use it. Use kiwi kleen detergent! It does wonders! And detergent is terribly bad for your hands. My hands felt soapy for the rest of the day. Maybe that's an exaggeration, but you get the picture. Oh yeah, what else did i learn? Tomato ketchup stains are the easiest to remove, and coffee stains turn water brown. There! That's everything useful i learnt on wednesday. I voted Nard, Grace, Sophia, AJ. I think Nard, Grace and AJ are good, but AJ looks scary. Sophia and Vivian are alright. I couldn't decide who to vote for, so i voted the Tarbetian!
Thursday.
i didn't go to school. Yay. I woke up early though. 5.45. I think i slept at 11.30-12 by the time i finally went to bed cos i was busy packing. I intended to sleep at 10.30 actually. Ended up leaving home quite late. About 6.35 i think. Thanks to Nicky boy. Since he won't ever see this it won't hurt to call him that? Yeah, Ruixin was even worse. She woke up at 6.20! I already finished showering by then? Yeah, she reached the Mrt station at 6.55. terrible pig! She made me wait for 5 minutes. Although i did make her wait for 10 mins on saturday. That was different. it was but 10 minutes! This was 5 whole minutes! Haha. The difference being that she din't have a book she wanted to read on the mrt and i did. It's too dark to read the the bus-stop. I think I was 10 pages away from finishing the book when i got off the train. So annoying. Actually, for me, Thursday was a nice nice day. I had lots of fun with Chloe, Xinqi and Ruixin. From early in the morning when we sat down at the curb of the road to talk, to finding out our terrible positions, to warming up, wishing the b girls good luck, making friends with st nicks girls, meeting sonia chan, finding out that xinqi took ballet once(but that was wayyy later), waiting anxiously for our 4x400 to start, hearing the gunshot actually go off, running doesn't describe what i did next, passing the baton to ruixin before staggering away... cheering for ruixin,xinqi, and chloe, cheering for our b girls, going to the sports hall to sleep, talking lots of rubbish, getting nagged at by xinqi to stop talking and sleep, ruixin's announcement of the results, arrival of our lunch, (lunched rocked, and the way we drank H20 too!), xinqi forcing me to eat, sharing a banana with xinqi,etc etc. It was so eventful. I keep forgetting to use Shinnie's method of motivating myself at the last 100m. imagine ICE CREAM! But i'm usually too focused on sth else to think of ice cream. For 800m, Xinqi, Ruixin and I all qualified for finals. So cool! Ruixin was the ast qualifier. Actually, she was really lucky, cos she was 3rd in her heats, she qualified although her ranking was like... 21st? She was the last qualifier. I can't believe that 2 seconds can make such a difference la. Between 12th and 21st, after all, she was but 2 seconds slower than me. I think that she'll beat me on the final day though. Ruixin always keeps up with me, no matter what, whenever we run together, and her last 100m sprinting is ALWAYS better than mine. Which is why i think if i set the pace, she might get into top 8 on wed. Gah! Wednesday is stupid. I have 1hr 15 mins in between my 2 events. Exactly that amount of time. Hello??? After i finish my 800 I need to go and warm up alr??? How am I to recover in time??? Sigh... I have slow recovery. And i f I go all out for my 800, I won't have anything left for 4x400. I wished they'd put 4x400 first. It's less tiring. Actually, it's not really less tiring, but it's over faster. For me at least. I think i will remain first runner. Mr Tan is likely to keep me as first runner. I like being first runner anyway. As long as I don't run after xinqi, it's fine, cos i really don't want to lose the lead xinqi gets for us. Which brings me to my next point of how xinqi shoudl be last runner. Our whole 4x400 team has events before te 4x400! Sigh...
Friday.
What happened today? nothing much. Studied for history test during geog, chem and higher chinese today. I meant to study last night, but i fell asleep. So yeah. I rmbed i had the history test of course, but... I wouldn't have been able to rmb anything anyway. So when i was rudely awoken from my slumber (cos i was sleeping on my sofa), I just walked to my bed and fell asleep. Actually i think my mum asked me to go to her room to drink water or sth, but i went to her bed and fell asleep, and my mum was like, "You don't move from one place t another and sleep! If you're really that tired just go and sleep!" So i just said okay i went to bed. Fell asleep in less than a minute i think. Yeah, so i completely didn't study for the history test. Which is why i took Sally's history file to study, cos there's no point looking for my own notes. By the time i find them, the test would've been over. No point wasting effort. The test was alright, though i don't know if i went out of point about the oracle bones. I don't even know if i stated what they were correctly. I said tortoise shells, cos that's what someone told me, plus that's what sally's notes said, but 2 weeks ago, i thought that oracle bones were bones. Human or not, i didn't 'know'. So yeah. I think they're tortoise shells. Right? I wrote wuite little for that question. And i wrote rubbish too. I think i wrote more sense for the 2nd question. I don't understand how shin could use foolscap. I couldn't even fill up all the lines!!! I left a few lines blank i think. And my arm was alr aching from writing non-stop. Ah who cares? 10 stupid marks. I think i should be able to get 5 out of 10? I hope so anyhow. If i don'tafter writing so much nonsense... -looks murderous- Yeah, assembly was stupid, but quite funny. The minute i saw the title of assembly, i knew it was gna be stupid. It was quite fun to observe the changes in the expressions of the teachers though. Laoshi's face was super stone and black. She looked very bored and angry. Weird... I think she laughed once though. Mrs Mohd was talking to some other teacher, and from the looks o it, they werediscussing sth utterly unrelated to assembly. I think the male teachers paid the most attention to the talk la! Sheesh. After assembly, which ended at almost 2, i had to help Mrs Sia carry my MAD project to D217 for her. But i couldn't find her. I had to wait for her for 5 mins, then carry some other weird people's projects for her too la. I think 4 projects. Too bad for them that i dropped it while going up the stairs. One of them, cause i almost crashed into this teacher, not mmy fault!!! The teachers i met on the way were all nice people. One of them helped me open doors, another one helped me pick up the projects I dropped, and i think another one asked me if i needed help. Do i lppk like i need help that badly? If the teachers weren't around, i could've kicked the door open. :p Always works. If you're on the correct side of the door, that is. Went out at 2.15, mum was quite pissed cos i told her 1.45. She came at 2.05, and thus waited for 10 mins. Went to eat lunch somewhere then went home and slept. Sleep is good for your health! Use xxx sleep product for improved sleep! Yeah, i think that sums up the happenings of today.
There's open house tmr!
baa went the sheep x 8:43 PM
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Whee! Chloe and Hushu qualified for 200m semis. Chloe qualified 13th!!! Yay. Xinqi got 4th! She did really really well, considering there were 2 HY girls who are really really good. Both of them set new records! Gah. 4.57sth. Freaky people. And to think i thought that Xinqi was better than the Khai Ling or whatever her name is, cos Xinqi beat her yday. She was slacking la. Xinqi improved her timing by about 10 secs today i think. That horrible Ruixin says that it's my fault Xinqi didn't get 3rd. Cos i wasn't there, so she felt depressed and didn't run and beat the St Nick girl. Whatever Ruixin!!! That's a compliment actually. It shows how important I am. Haha. Sonia Chan got 5th! And I still haven' t seen her yet. I hope I see her tmr or sth. The last time I saw her was in P3. She won't rmb me, i was never really close to her, but i remember her, vaguely. Strange, I never knew she was a year older than me.
4x400 tmr. I'm not as nervous about that as 800m. Like... two horrible rounds around the track. But honestly, i'd rather do that than 200, cos 200 is freaky, the start is very fast, and it's very long. I wonder who will be tarbet track capt next yr. I will make sure the person puts me in events i want only. I have no idea how i ended up running sprints this sports day in the first place.
I'm happy. I slept a lot today. Sleeping is good for you. Let's start implementing the sleep 12 hrs a day policy. I'm very random now, don't ask me why. My no. tag was poked by my spikes! There's a hole in it.
Oh crap. 800m, I'm in heat 1. Sigh. Now i'm worried about it. I'm running with Vanessa again. Vanessa is good la. And there's this HY girl. And also a lo of FREAKY people. I think i shall just tag vanessa if i can la. She's quite fast, i think. I have no idea how my speed is like now. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I think the Vanessa person is about Xinqi's speed! Oh noooo! Nvm. I shall imagine she's Xinqi, and try not to let the gap between me and 'Xinqi' get too big.
baa went the sheep x 8:12 PM
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
I feel like blogging now. Okay. I was super high after my 400m event today, when i managed to convince myself that i did my best in that circumstance. Now i'm not so sure. I feel like killing myself. Not because I wanted to do well for myself today, but moreso for others. People who believed i could do better. And what's the point of telling me i ran well and tried my best if i don't believe it myself? Honestly, today's run feels worse than thursday's contrary to the timings. Perhaps it was because i could hear Vanessa behind me all the way? I feel like i could have beaten Vanessa if only i had tried hard enough. Vanessa got 9th. For chloe's info, Vanessa is the girl we helped. I was ahead of her all the way until the curve. Which means that when i reached the curve, i was still at the same place as her. Then she overtoook. Which is when i should have chased! Anyway, Vanessa is very nice. I'll meet her again at 800m if i'm in heat 1. I just realised a friend i knew from ballet class when i was in P2 is probably Sonia Chan, from St nicks. Some super zai runner and ballerina. I mean, her shoe can drop off in her Grade 2 exam, and she can still get honours. Zaidedness right? I think she was in the 'Beauty and the Beast' ballet production by the Sylvia McCully School of Dancing. Looking back on those days, it really is quite amusing. I rmb the antagonistic retorts i used to throw back at Leonie and her gang of friends. I probably was the most hated person on Leonie's list. I think i was kind of unreasonable and petty when young. I have no idea. All i know is the only people i got along with was Gloria and her friends. And everyone seemed to be Gloria's friend. Wong Liang Hui(the ny pple know her), Squirrel(Cheryl Ann Lee), Natasha Kim(I met her at the funny restaurant at Liang Court in P3). How many of the RG pple would believe i know Cheryl and Liang Hui through ballet? yes, Cheryl, the SL, the Tarbetian, the 108er.
Why am i going back into the ballet days? I can't turn time back and work harder on my ballet. It's not like i want to now. But honestly, 5 yrs wasted on ballet. 3 ballet camps. Character shoes, character skirts, new leotards, normal shoes, pink ballet socks... ballet belts! I wonder how many thousands my mum spent on it. I feel guilty. And after all that, I can't split. Sheesh! But i do have my nice character skirt and shoes!Which tell me how much i grow. I can't buckle it anymore. My skirt. I grew lots fatter. And taller too My longgggg character skirt which used to be slightly above my ankles are now slightly below my knees? Yay! I can boast a 7 colour character skirt. Which shows i was tall, cos most people had only 5 colours. :p Gah. I learnt something. I shall never learn anything again, unless i really want to. I have no doubt if my mum hadn't offered me the chance to start learning ballet at 4, by 5, i would've asked my mum to let me learn, and i would have treasured it a lot more and worked harder on it.
My legs ache. Do you suppose that would count as a sign that i did my best? My best isn't that lousy though. I hope. My best considering circumstances? Perhaps.I should have stretched. Sigh.
Too lazy to blog anymore. St Nick girls are nice... :p oh yeah. most of the girls i were running with were sec 2. Could i reach their standard by next year? If only Xinqi had run. She would have beaten them all. I think Mr Tan is pissed with me. I so care don't I? I'm high! Yes chloe dear, I'll smile. I'm NOT depressed or sickly or skinny. Though i did feel like a scarecrow today. The comp vest is kinda loose. To think i wanted an XL. :p
baa went the sheep x 9:29 PM
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Sigh. Yet another day has passed. I wonder which day of my life this is. As in, number what. I think it's the 4576th day. Pardon me if i miscalculated. I'm not really happy now. I'm haunted. haunted by the thought that i might have been able to do better just now. Could i have? It's too late to find out now isn't it?
Forget it. I don't feel like blogging anymore. I'll blog another time.
baa went the sheep x 8:27 PM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
I had a weird weird dream last night. I dreamt that our timetable changed and the history test was on thursday, so i could skip it. then, i found out it was just a dream. hmph.
track yesterday. track yesterday was alright, but since iwas the only person supposed to be running 600m, cos i was doing 400 on tues, not 1500, mr tan decided to make me do a 1200 with ruixin and xinqi. ruixin improved so much. hmph. from running one round and dropping out, she tells me that i must finish it even though i was about to drop out. because i don't have that distance! and i don't need to run 1.2. and the weather was so hot. i think it was the hottest track prac yet this year. really. janice turned completely red after practising her hurdles a few times. i was super super red after i finished the 1.2. and i don't usually turn red after running la. but the sun was so terrible. It sapped energy like anything. Xinqi did her 1.2 at the same pace as the really cool morning. 4.29. Previously, a 4.28. 1 second slower!!!!!! 1 second!!!! hello? I think ruixin did it 12 secs slower. I didn't do it that time. :p So i can't compare. But i was 5 seconds slower than ruixin, which usually doesn't happen, so it wasn't really good. don't care though. not my event. then he made us run 3 rounds around the field. or rather 3x3/4 rounds around the field. I think... We all had no idea what he wanted us to do. So we did it our way. :p
Oh yeah. Abby is very nice. But she is also very mean!!!! After training, ruixin and i wanted to walk to the mrt station with her, cos we didn't know how to get there. (Without wandering round and round the place.) Abby said she needed to go to the toilet first. So we waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and wwaited and waited outside the toilet. Then, we decided to go in and check. The handicapped toilet was te only one with the door closed. Now, all the toilet cubicle doors opened inward. we knocked and knocked on the door and called for abby. no reply. xinqi and ruixin then concluded that abby was inside. I didn't think so though. Abby would have said sth. so i suddenly pushed the door. and found out that it opened outwards. Upon opening the door, we realised it was empty. I am super annoyed now. I can't believe that 9/10 of my lovely long post just disappeared. The above was the first 1/10 of it. Hmphhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I can't rmb what i typed!!!!! I said so so so so so so so much!!!!!!!!!! It's no use ever trying to retype it. I wouldn't know where to start! I shall attempt to anyway. Sigh. Anyway, Ruixin and I speedily said goodbye to xinqi cos i didn't intend t be any later than i alr was for church. We felt very bad about levaing xinqi there because we didn't want to abandon her and leave her to wait for her mum all by herself. And she was giving us that cute pouty face chloe excels in. I never saw xinqi's before. Chloe's the best at it though. haha. And xinqi didn't look dao anymore. I on't think xinqi can ever look dao to me in future. She was smiling and she looked super cute. haha. anyway, xinqi and i decided to gang on ruixin and give her the pouty face thing. Then she put her own on, and it was so funny that the 3 of us ended up laughing.:p then ruixin and i really had to go so we hurried to the mrt station, not stopping to get ice cream although i wanted to. We did manage to get lost though, and ruixin had to ask the security guard for directions. anyway, at the platform, someone ask us, "how come you all walk so slow?i went to guardian to buy some things before coming here you know" We looked up and saw Abby! Argh! i tell you, ruixin and I felt like murdering her. But Abby is really really very nice. All the sec 4s are nice. Infact, all our seniors are nice. Really. I wonder who will become track capt next year. The person will have quite a lot of problem stepping into Abby's shoes. And i wonder who will become track captain the year after that. I think xinqi is really likely to become track captain in my year. So i don't really wonder. But i wasnt xinqi to become head prefect too. Even though most geppers would probably think me traitor, but if it came to a fight between weishan and xinqi, most likely, i'd vote for xinqi. cos xinqi CAN do the job better. Weishan would actually do a really good job. i think she is a better speaker than xinqi. But i don't know. I have a feeling xinqi is a better candidate. and xinqi is likely to be hadley track capt that year too. Unless it goes to ruixin. i shouldn't be surprised if it did. Ruixin does seem very track captainish. Of hadley, that is. And xinqi can be track capt. And if i become tarbet track capt then, tarbet and hadley can work together, the way tarbet and richardson worked together this yr, cos of huishan and abby. :p
Anyway, back to abby. Abby said she thought we went off without her cos there was no one outside the toilet. We also didn't see Abby. I wonder where we/she were. So she decided to try and catch up with us. Anyway, our train came before hers. She was taking to pasir ris. One silly stop away. Her church is in pasir ris. And mine is where? Adam road. Which means i have to go back 19 stops to bishan, get into the car where my parents are waiting, sit in the car until we get there in about 10 mins. And get out of the car. yeah. so we waved frantically to Abby. And she reminded me to stretch. In church? hello? Of course, i didn't. She started stretching at the bench. Typical track captain. Abby's so cute. I sound like i'm talking about a little rabbit or sth.
Ruixin and i got on the train. I dno why the train was so packed. All 19 stops, Ruixin and i stood around. We changed train a City Hall, and the silly train was still packed. Anyway, Ruixin was worrying about her Sarah. Long term rival since primary school. Speaking of her primary school... Cough2ndrunnercoughpresbyteriansecondaryschoolcoughacertainsomeonecoughcoughcough. Pity you're never going to read this isn't it ruixin? Haha. Apparently, a lot of people don't like this sarah person because she's very "Christiany". Or at least, they think she is. Ruixin said that whenever she said "oh my God", which she still does, sarah would say, "you cannot say that. you don't have a God. Only i have a God." Dots... Like hello? Weird Sarah person. It gives a horrible impression of Christians who think themself superior to anyone else. Anyway. Ruixin started asking me about baptism of the holy spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues. Everytime chloe sin't that, i get asked all these questions. By xinqi as well as ruixin. I don't think i explained it very well, although i have attended both KWYB and WTTTF. BOTH. But it's so hard to explain, and it all seemed to have temporarily left me. I tried to explain, but i don't know how well i did it. Xinqi was asking me why chloe was always in church. I told her is cos church is most important to chloe. Then she was like... Oh. Sorry. She was afraid of offending me, i believe, for religion is a touchy subject, but i wasn't offended. Then ruixin was asking me what we do in church. But church is church! How do i explain it? I'm sure chloe can explain it better to them la. Then after i somewhat explained it to them,(it's quite hard to do it tactfully anf to make sure you don't force your opinions and beliefs on other people) Xinqi declined to comment cos i thknk she didn't want to offend me or anything. Anyway, i asked ruixin to come to church. She didn't say no la. Perhaps chloe could help me in future.
Anyway, i was super high on the way to church, in church, and after church. Weirdly high for no particulare reason. But being high is nice. After service, i was bouncing around happily on the way back to the car and going "Boing, boing, squeak! Boing, boing, squeak! A bouncy mouse is in my house i fear it's come to stay!" Or sth or other. How high does one get? Haha.
anyway, what i got from track yday: a spoilt ankle, which is better today, but still feels kind of weak. a blistering heel, don't ask me how. The track was super hot yday. Abby burnt her hands doing the starting thing. The sun was that terrible. And i got super high. I like track! yay!
Oh yeah. I would like to lodge a complaint! My mum just said i'm going to grow fat. HMPH! Just because i eat more than her, or my dad, or my sis, means that i'll grow fat if i stop track? I'm just growing...
This post is quite long. i am not going to let this stupid thing erase itself again. hmph. I shall do a word count.
Toodles! As you can see, i'm quite high now.//1629 words
baa went the sheep x 9:39 AM
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Friday, July 08, 2005
The Horror Bus!
What jumps to your mind when one sees these words? For shin and I, it's bus no. 156. (disclaimer: "horror bus" was thought of by shin hui.) We both had certain experiences with certain 156 buses, though i'll admit hers were worse. I mean, if a group of 10 or so gangsters smelling of smoke and spewing vulgarities board the bus and sit right behing me, and start going "xiao jie! ni jiao shen me ming zi? ni ke yi gei wo men ni de dian hua hao ma?" about 5 times, i will seriously freak out. I would freak out even more if my judo senior goes, "excuse me, can you all please stop it?" in an attempt to rescue me, but the guys are like "we only want her name and number what... if you don't want to give then say so lar don't keep quiet!! we don't want yours anyway we only want hers! Why you jealous ah?? (referring to my senior)". And continue their "xiao jie" nonsense. Poor shin. She's so lucky she was with her seniors.
And a weird guy who gets on the bus when one is standing at the door, and has long curly hair, can't keep still for a minute, isn't much better either. He kept turning his head left and right, up and down. Goodness knows what he was trying to do. And he craned his neck to dno do what. He scratched his neck/arm /wherever non-stop and his eyes rolled around. okay, maybe not rolled around, but shifted from place to place. Freaky. He did all this at the same time. Sheesh! I thought he was mad or sth. And he blocked the entrance. I had to get pass him to get off the bus. Sigh... I was really worried he was going to jump off the bus and follow me or sth. He kept glancing at me. Freakiness! 156 is the horror bus i tell you.
Yesterday's nationals were alright, though i had hoped to do better, based on time trial timings. Chloe and I got into semis. I got 22nd out of 24? Sure... 70.69. Yeah, it's kinda bad. The worst thing is that it's my PB. I'm not improving the way the others are. Why? Ruixin can do a 72 in nat juniors (i did 71), and a 68.05 during the time trials the other day. I don't expect much in the semis, i'm just going to try my best? Hopefully, i'm inspired by this afternoon's assembly talk, where the woman did 22.96 for a 200m race. I don't really feel inspired to run the way she did though. Too many thoughts are running through my mind. I won't be able to catch them all. Today, the 4x100m, c div, did well. They got 5th. They might be capable of a slightly faster timing, but it doesn't change the fact that they did really well. The b div did fairly well for that too. I think sabby was tired though. She had 4x100 immediatly after her long jump. Not exactly ideal. She did really really well for her long jump. i think. Enough about nats for now. I'm sick and tired of nats. Probably because i'm kind of worried about it. Lane 8??? Like hello? Ah who cares. Just go try my best. I'm kindof afraid that 70.69 is my limit. In which case i'd disappoint abby. Abby's very very very nice. Sigh. Nvm.
Hello Mum. Thank you. I've cooled down alr, so perhaps i can give a less biased account of what happened. I just get home (as in, reach the gate), and my mum's car suddenly drives by and opens the gate. I'm like... oh crap. I'm in for it now. Lalala. I didn't just reach home. Nope! I did't tell you it should end by 4 plus 5. I didn't reach home at 6.50. I'm not home later than normal. So anyway, my mum scolds me for spending so much time out and not coming home to do my homework. "why don't you go and be a professional athlete?" Riiight mum. Anyway, my mum was in a bad mood. And she found a pair of socks on the floor downstairs. "joanna! you come home, take off your socks and throw it on the floor is it! I spank you then you know!" My sister: That's my socks! My mum: Oh. Okay. Thanks mum! No sorry joanna, no "grace, why did you throw your socks on the floor?" The only way i can see that thats my fault is because i didn't pick them up. but i didn't even walk pass them, or see them, or i probably would have. That isn't all. I get yelled at for an untidy shelf. Where's the untidy shelf? In OUR room. My sister's and mine. But oh guess what? I wonder whose fault it is for the untidy shelf. Oh, what a surprise! It's my fault again!! I'm the youngest, yet i have the responsibilty of packing up after myself and my sis. And my mum has the highest expectations of me. Nowadays, she compares me to MY YOUNGER SELF! "Last time, when you were young, you didn't ... you weren't like... you were very neat! I was also always very neat. I don't know where you picked your untidiness up from! Certainly not from me! I was neer like that." So now she compares me with my younger self and tells me how wonderful i WAS. How is it that when i was oyung, all she did was scold me and compare me with other SUPERIOR people? Hmmm... I wonder... Anyway... I start to pack my shelfs. I spend 1.5 hrs trying to pack my room. Plenty of Grace Ng's primary 5 or 6 work lay there. Oh... my fault too. Of course, grace need not pack. Did i tell you what she was doing? Watching my dearest nicholas ng play some computer game all the while. Nothing against my sis. She's very sweet. But argh... she never has to do packing. I either have to help her, or my mum does it for her. Even if she had to, i would usually do it for her i guess, unless i really feel terribly annoyed/moody or whatever. Yeah, yeah. Everything is my fault.My mum is actually very very nice when she's nice. But very very unreasonable when she's not nice.
Honestly, before this, i was perfectly happy. As in, earlier today. I feel closer than ever to the trackers again. I just love that feeling. RGS track team rocks! Anyway, I learnt something. After a terrible day usually comes a good day. Because in comparison to the previous day, it would be good. And if nothing bad ever happened, we wouldn't be able to appreciate the good things that come our way.
Question: Should i go for cell tmr or for track trng from 2-3 plus? Chloe would say church of course. Ruixin will say track. Joanna will say she really really doesn't know and needs to ask someone wise's advice. What do you think?
baa went the sheep x 8:53 PM
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Always and Forever, Planet Shakers
There's nothing better
Than living for you
Saving my world with you,
There's nothing better
Than praising your name
And lifting my praise
Wanna spend forever
Standing in your presence
And i wanna show you
What you mean to me god
I give you my whole life
And i gotta tell you
That i am yours forever
Lord i give you my whole life
Jesus i will live for you
In everything i do
I'm holding onto you
Always!Always and forever..
And when my world is falling down
In you i will be found
I'm staying in your arms today
Always! always and forever..
There's nothing better
Than living for you
Saving my world with you,
There's nothing better..
And i wanna show you
What you mean to me god
I give you my whole life
And i've gotta tell you
I am yours forever
Lord i give you my whole life
Jesus i will live for you
In everything i do
I'm holding onto you
Always!Always and forever..
And when my world is falling down
In you i will be found
I'm staying in your arms today
Always!Always and forever..
Always and forever
Always! always and forever...
Jesus i will live for you
In everything i do
I'm holding onto you
Always!Always and forever...
And when my world is falling down
In you i will be found
I'm staying in your arms today
Always!Always and forever..
Always!Always and forever
Always!Always and forever
Always!Always and forever
baa went the sheep x 10:33 PM
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