MCC today was okay i guess. I took a bus home by myself without company. It really was terribly boring, so i took out my Welcome to the Trinity Family to go through the significance of water baptism again. As it turned out, i kind of memorised it, cos i was so bored, and i repeated everything during the water baptism interview with pastor susie and bro victor til i became known as the one who memorises text book answers. :p 1. It is a command from Jesus. 2. Jesus set the example for us. 3.It is our identification with Christ's death, burial and ressurection. 4. It is a public declaration of our new life in Jesus. I think it's sth like that. Like i said, i just skimmed through it, but i rmbed it anyhow. I think Pastor Susie and Bro Victor think that i memorised it on purpose just before the water baptism interview though. Hmph. Esther was so super freaked out about the water baptism nterview for nothing. It wasn't even really an interview. More so a chat. After that, it was mostly the instructions on what to do on the date of your water baptism. I'm getting water baptised in august. whee! Oh anyway, during core grp today, i wasn't really high, i was the normal me, somewhat, you know. But suddenly during cell i got really high. As in really high. I think i lot of my cell members now think i'm slightly mad. I really went quite insane in cell today. I kept barking like a doggie and snarling like a tiger? And wobbling from sie to side like a penguin, and i talked lots of crap with sam. Sigh... my cell isn't warm... The people are nice... but i'm just not close to them. I think the person i'm closest to is Grace Lee. Or perhaps Joanna Teo. Sam rocks. I think Sam is the nicest of the IJ girls. She's certainly the most open and she makes cell a lot livelier. Without her, most likely there would be a lot of awkward silences during cell. Sister elaine mentioned people who make more noise than recessary, and people who are too quiet, or sth along these lines in cell today. I think i really make a lot of noise, though Sam makes more. I share my ideas a lot. I don't know... i'm starting to think that my group is starting to depend on me to start the discussions for them or to provide them with answers to sister elaine's questions. After all, whenever i write anything down, it is promptly whisked away and copied by the other members of the cell. They're too afraid of saying anything they think i guess. The same problem as last yr. Not spontaneous enough. Only sam talks a lot, but she tells mostly jokes and doesn't share her opinion. Oh well, at least it lightens the atmosphere. How can i get my cell to be more spontaneous? I think i shd start shutting up soon and making others take the step to start discussions. i think i shall not say anything next week or sth. And christopher is making things worse. Cos everytime sister elaine asks someone to start, he arrows me. not that i mind starting, but others need to learn to speak up too. And he's giving everyone the idea that my answers are always deep and reflective and 'correct', simply because i'm from RGS. So he's stressing the RGS thing and the superior to you mentality. Gah. I hope sis elaine splits all the ij girls up next yr. I wish they'll just speak up and share their opinions. I honestly don't really know them very well, apart from this hazy image as one gang called 'the ij girls', the only one i can relate to is sam, and perhaps jo teo. So much for our cell dinner. Anyway, after water baptism interview after service i went to look for nick. I can't believe it took like half an hr. It didn't seem that long. Talked to nick for like 5 mins, then i walked to the bus stop. I somehow had this feeling that the rest were waiting for me. So i walked super briskly. Got there at arnd 7.35-7.40. 5-10 mins after i left church. And i was correct. They were still there cos 156 hadn't come yet. It came along about 1-2 mins after i arrived. I knew it was waiting for me. I just knew it! haha, Anyway, we ate at yoshinoya. It's called bonding, but the clique talked only among themselves, the 2 guys among themselves, grace and i talked to each other, and sister elaine with valerie. basically, the same way it usually is in service. What a very successful attempt at bonding! Ble! The worst of it is that they're all nice people i can't dislike. Oh well...
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