That is so unfair! I just figured sth out. And well... you can say that I didn't expect it. But some people are clannish I guess, they'll back their own clan up no matter how wrong that person was. I can't say I really blame her. But still. At least there are people I know I can actually COUNT on. My perception of things are changing. My perception of good and evil is changing too. I don't need this right now. Especially not now. I'm beginning to wish, to wish... wish myself back to before. But I cannot go through my life again knowing exactly how everything turns out. In a way, if I go back to before, I can change a lot of things, wasted opportunities caught, mistakes undone. Yet, I wouldn't have learnt from my mistakes. The thing I cannot stand is that there isn't really anyone whom I know I can count on forever, with the exceptions of my family. There are some people who I don't think will betray me I guess... Everythings topsy-turvy. People whom I once believed would be there for me, whom I expected to grow with and to learn with... Even now, although... I still cannot think that about her, because somehow, there are two sides to everything. If I look at things from her POV, I'd understand, I guess, I did sth pretty much the same too, which led to her doing that to me, but still... I have a stronger base and not just that, while I would've thought that she would judge not only on her clan but on her own personal judgement of...
But she didn't. So it's wishful thinking. It's not that I really wish it, it didn't really affect me that much. Really. But... there's a sense of loss for an older sister.
I have a crap load of hw to do. I have misunderstandings which I never intend to clear-up. I'm not stupid and you know I'm not. I wouldn't have been as stupid as that. Sheesh. You don't understand do you? Well... it shows your knowledge. I don't see how it applies, frankly, but even as I typed what I did, i anticipated that response. Why are you so slow? I'm not affect by it and never was.
Why? Even now, i shall refuse to accept that as an answer for what you did. You proved contrary to it once, but clannishness, while it can be good, can also be bad. Oh well. you're just like me then. Surprising how the way it's used can draw or repel people to or from you.
I fight my friends' wars
baa went the sheep x 7:22 PM
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