How could this happen to me I open my eyes I try to see but I'm Blinded by the white light. I can’t remember how I can’t remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can’t stand the pain And I can’t make it go away No I can’t stand the pain *CHORUS* How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on as I’m fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody’s screaming I try to make a sound But no one hears me I’m slipping off the edge I’m hanging by a thread I want to start this over again So I try to hold On to a time when Nothing mattered And I can’t explain What happened and I can’t erase the things that I’ve done No I can’t *CHORUS* How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on as I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got nowhere to run The night goes on as I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Sigh... It's one of those days... Haven't seen any humans today except Foo whatever her name is. I think it's Foo YiLing. The last time i saw her was in Dec... And i don't think she really qualifies as a human. Okay i shan't be mean. But sheesh... she is dao!!!Yeah... s since i had no contact with humans until now, since i'm talking to shin on msn, i feel kinda weird. I don't know why.The fact that i did sth to my dratted ankle today doesn't help. I hate the stones at macritchie. Stupid ankle twisted on one of the stones just as i was about to hit the road. Luckily, it's not sprained or anything i hope. It just hurts and feels weak. Stupid ankle... I realised how important it is not to look back on past successes or failures. I thought last week a success. Well... newsflash. It was a dismal failure. My memory played tricks on me. I remembered the run from the road to the carpark to be really really long. After my foot slipped on the stone, i started walking, until i hit the first bus stop in a time much shorter than i had anticipated. Then i realised it wasn't that far, so i started running again, until i hit the second bus-stop. Then i remembered the terribly long road to the 3rd bus stop which actually wasn't long at all...so i decided to walk again. then from the 3rd bus-stop i ran in. And my stupid timing was better than last sundays. Tell me what my conclusion should be. I just realised how fun swimming is. I haven't gone swimming since march. Oh yeah. Before and after swimming, i lost 800 grams. I swam further than i ever swam before i think. Cos from the start to the end, i just swam up and down and up and down until my parents wanted to go off.Weirdness. According to the highly probably inaccurate weighing machine at SICC. Don't worry... after dinner, i put all the weight back on with interest. I told mum that i should start eating less ice cream to avoid growing fat and she told me not to be insane and that thinkinh i'm fat is the first step to becoming anorexic. I never said i was fat though. I just thought i should eat less than 3 ice creams everyday and perhaps not more than 300 g of chocs a day. I don't feel like sleeping. I shall go do what i feel i need to do.
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