There are these times when i really don't know what to make of my life. Do i like it or do i wish it would get better? All along, i thought my life rocked. From childhood til... last year? You see, i wasn't prepared. My world was always so stable. I was a primary school GEP kid going on to secondary school. No big deal right? Wrong. Since then, my life turned topsy turvy, nothing made sense anymore. I always loved my life. I knew how good it was, it couldn't get better. A GEP kid studying in RGPS. A lot of parents would be proud to have children like that. I think mine were. Ever since i were young, from probably the start of primary school, i always wanted to go to raffles girls' school. Ahhh. Now you people see the problem. Raffles Girls' School. The most prestigious girls' secondary school in Singapore. Or should i say the most prestigious secondary school in Singapore? For we all know RGS is a way better school than RI. Most RI people are not very smart (retarded), so i don't think much of RI. Sue me. I don't mind saying that there are exceptions though. Anyway, i was really pleased to be going to RG. You see, it isn't just the most presigious sec sch in Singapore, it is my mother's secondary school, i knew i would always count it one of my failures if i didn't go to RGS. And if i don't finish secondary school in RGS, i'll always feel like a part of me isn't here anymore. Childhood dreams don't go easily. So mum and dad, if you ever read this, which i hope you don't or i'll be really freaked out, but anyway, don't ever think of taking me out of RG and putting me in MG or SCG. Coz guess what? Despite the stressful kind of life i lead, or the long hours i spend in school, although that has nothing to do with the school, but rather, the cca and 3rd lang, i feel really proud of my school, and its what pushes me on. The little amount of sleep doesn't exactly help either. 4 hrs a day kinda sucks. But i would be happy, if my work were a little more up-to-date. But one thing i really feel? Performance tasks are one of the suckiest things on earth. I hate them forever. And i hate chinese. I really really hope i don't flunk. Since i've gone to RG, my grades have really dropped. And the saddest thing is that i don't take pride in my work anymore. What happened to the Joanna Ng i used to know? The Joanna Ng who always did her work, always tried her best, even though it was never as good as Cas', it never mattered. And it really hurts to see my grades dropping, my standard of work plunging. I always cared about my work. And still do, its just that i'm too weary too do it properly. Sigh... I'm starting to hate my work, though i'll much rather love it. I used to be able to love EVERYTHING i do? Whats wrong with me? Now the part of my life i love most is church, and track. Don't you dare take that away from me. Whatever you do, leave that alone. Especially church. You have got to be joking.. Give up going to church to finish my hw? Nice try, mum and dad. Off to do my work! I feel in the mood to do my work now. I love blogging. It helps lighten my mood a lot. =p
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